2 years!

Wow, it has been a while since I posted on here!  It has been almost 2 years of dating.  About a year ago Matt made the big move from Colorado to North Carolina.  We've had our ups and downs, he had a hard time finding a job here and he still hasn't found a full time job.  We love each other a lot and our communication skills have only gotten better.  Who knows what the future will hold?

Almost 9 Months

It has been almost 9 months since Matt and I started dating. The long distance is tough sometimes but it is worth it! We won't see each other for another month but then we are going on a trip and he is planning on moving here shortly after that.

Tragedy tests things

A little over a week ago, my 30 year old brother died unexpectedly. He is my only sibling. Needless to say, my family was shocked and crushed. Matt did everything he could to get a flight here in time for the funeral. He was here for me in my time of need and held my hand throughout all of the hard times that followed. He is a really amazing man. The only benefit of this tragedy in my life is that it made it so that Matt could meet ALL of my family at once (which went really well-they love him). Before he was able to fly home, we got the news that his grandfather had died. While I was upset to not be able to return to Colorado to support him during that time (it was my first week of work), I still felt like our bond was stronger. In short, this tragedy has brought us closer and I am so lucky to have him.

Off to Colorado

I just returned from an AWESOME trip to Colorado. I had a great time meeting Matt's family and seeing what his life is like out there. I love that he constantly tests my comfort zone and I feel comfortable enough to step outside of it with him. We played mini golf, went to a water park, won big at a casino, went on some "normal" dates and enjoyed just being with each other. I miss him so bad. Alright folks, you heard it here first (if you haven't heard it before): I am in love with that man.

The Distance Grows Greater

Matt and I have talked every day since we started dating until...I took a trip to Europe. The trip meant that we wouldn't be able to talk to each other for 19 days. While these days were rough, I think both of us just tried to keep busy and not think about the other. Surprisingly, now that I am back and can talk to him again, I actually miss him more. The long distance situation has only gotten hard since I've been back. It's frustrating to not have the money to be able to fly back and forth.

THE BIG VISIT!

So, now we've been dating for a little over 3 months and the big thing finally happened. We met each other face to face. While many things about the weekend didn't go as I thought they would, we still had a great time. I really miss him not being here (especially when I am sick). He was a really good sport during the weekend and met my family and spent a lot of time with my crazy friends. I'm sure everyone knows this, but a long distance relationship is not easy. I think we're doing a pretty good job with it though.

I am a new woman

I have to be honest with you, meeting a man like this has really brought out a new side of me. I'm liking it. Things are going really well with us, we're coming up on 2 months and plans are in place for a visit in the near future. Exciting stuff people!

I have a boyfriend?

Could it be that this site actually works? M is officially my boyfriend. Yesterday was our one month anniversary. Things are going really well. We'll see where they will go but I can't currently imagine my future without him. Yay for romance!

I said I wasn't going to do this...

So, I was trying really hard not to blog about this person but...there's someone (semi) new in the picture. And this time it is different. This guy seems to be a really great match for me: he makes me smile, he's sweet, he listens, he calls me out on my BS, he respects my limits, he's awesome at dealing with me when I'm sick, he makes me feel appreciated and desired...what's not to like right? Distance. Distance is what is not to like. He lives across the country from me and LOVES it there. And I live here and love it here. I feel like he's one of the best things to happen to me in a while and he's encouraged me to stop worrying and just let our relationship evolve. So, I announce to the world that it is evolving. I've never felt feelings for someone this quickly, but it just feels so right. So I'm happy to have him in my life, friend or more. And yes, I realize how crazy I sound. If you don't like it, read someone else's blog.

To said gentleman, this blog is in no way meant to pressure you into anything. But seeing as how we talk about the above often, I figured it wouldn't be much of a surprise.

The curse of the blog

I have learned (the hard way) that blogging to people about your high hopes for a future relationship is stupid. Whenever I say something like "ooooh I like this one" or "I'm excited about _____" or "Tonight I met a new guy!" it always tends to make things go south quickly. Most of the men didn't even know about my blog, so I'm not attributing this to them reading about my excitement in an entry. I just feel like there is unspoken curse to admitting digitally to like someone. So this time, I'm keeping my mouth shut, but you know who you are.

As an update, guy mentioned in the previous blog began to sext me. This is why I have never given my number out before (and will be hesitant to do so hereafter). But giving my number out contributed to my New Years Resolution, so I have no regrets. That said, I am bummed that M did begin to sext me because things were headed in a good direction up until then.

I also find that I am in a dilemma. I want a guy who is sexual but is able to keep it to himself (for the most part) until further into a relationship. Now don't get me wrong, it is a huge ego boost to have all of these men pursuing me sexually, but there's nothing of value to that. I want a man that will build a relationship with me first and take things slow until I'm ready. Too much to ask? Well then I'll just be single.

Long Distance?

So my "feeling that J is going to stick around for a while" was way off. So much for that. He's a good guy and he didn't turn out sleazy like the others. I guess it just wasn't going to work out. It helped prove my theory about facebook correct though. Giving a guy your facebook quickly ruins the romance...which makes me wonder...is getting to know the real you a turn off? Because not to toot my own horn, but I am an amazing woman. Is there something in my profile that is ruining my chances with guys? Anyway, it's not like all my options are done or anything, it's just always a bummer when you open up to someone and then they call it off.

In other news, I met a new guy a few days ago. He is already very into me which makes me a bit reluctant.

I sometimes wonder how much all this internet stuff is making me jaded.

Sorry for all the jumbled thoughts today...best of luck to all of you.

To admit it or not?

So, my experiences with Christian dating have really gotten me down on men. As soon as I start to like a guy, he turns sleazy. So, I reservedly admit that I like someone new. He's far away, so that sucks. He's really different from me but also understanding. So, hesitantly I say...there's a new guy in the picture and I have a feeling that J might just stick around a while. Who knows?

Warning: Venting session in progress

So excuse me while I vent a little. Are ALL men obsessed with sex? I know the clear answer to this, but I'm just looking for a guy that can be sexual but also carry on a non flirty conversation with me. I'm tired of every man's mind leading to sexual things. Also, I've been giving skype a chance and it must be THE answer to many horny men's prayers. Every guy from CM that I have skyped with has wanted to push things further sexually on cam or voice...are there really a bunch of girls out there that encourage that? If so, ladies, WOMAN UP.

Older boy for me? My lucky day!

I just recieved a message from a 49 year old man who didn't want to talk on the site but wanted me to IM him and his screen name was OlderBoy4U. Seriously? Should I create a screen name that is NotN2Olderguys? Tempting.

For the record fellas, I am into older men. Just not THAT old.

Fetish on the Christian site

Tonight a guy from SC whispered to me "I'd like to sit on your white feet in ballet flats, please". I've got a few issues with this:
1) This was a complete stranger
2) His icon was the American Flag (God Bless America, fetishes and all)
3) He wants to sit on my feet?
4) He felt the need to mention my skin color as if I am not aware of the color of my feet. (And when pressed as to why this mattered, he added "I'm white, so I like white girls")
5) Later when I asked him what he "liked" about me, he said "I never said I liked you".
6) He told me he would like to "sit on your feet and have you bounce me with your ballet flats on" and I responded with "Do you get off to that?" and he asked "Does it matter?"
7) If anyone would like to pursue this man or send him pictures of your "white feet in ballet flats" I'll be happy to share his email addy.

Best of luck to you R.